Dreaming THE dream

In casual conversation, I often talk about 'THE DREAM'; if you're a parent, I bet you have the dream too. I think everyone's version is a little bit different and may change with the month or day or even moment, but here's a few of the things that define THE dream for me.

In THE dream:

• My boys are best buddies; they laugh, they play, they don't hit each other every other second, or even at all.
• My boys don't need to be entertained every, second of the day.
• I absolutely, never ever, have to change another pair of poopy pants.
• My boys pee IN the toilet, wipe up their own dribbles and even wipe their own bums.
• The hubs and I leave the house, together, alone, regularly.
• The boys don't catch every cold they walk by.
•  My boys are polite, kind and considerate.
• Everyone contributes to keeping the house clean and tidy willingly (myself included).
• The dog stops getting scared, snappy and biting.
• I never have to work on the weekend or evening.
• My boys know how to handle their emotions without great frustration.
• My boys love books and nature and exploration more than television, computers and video games.
• Eating out safely, for both the Bolt (peanut-free) and myself (gluten-free) is easy and delicious.

I'm certain there are many more things that encompass THE dream for me, but for now this will have to do. I'm curious, what defines YOUR dream?

My Blog has a Muffin Top

I recently read a blog re-branding article and although I don't remember exactly which article it was that resonated with me, what I remember clearly is that when I finished reading the article, I was left with a single resounding syllable in my mid.

YES.

• Does my blog feel like it doesn't quite fit as well as it used to? YES.
• Does my blog feel too much like work and not enough like creative release? YES.  
• Have I been neglecting to post quality content for far too long? YES.

So what does that mean? I'm not exactly sure.

• I know, that I don't want to let my blog, that I worked so hard to create, fall to the wayside. 
• I know, that I like that I like being a blogger and having connections with amazing people across Canada and the world.
• I know, that my time is limited, my family is my priority and I need to be realistic about the expectations I have of myself.

Much like the pants that don't fit quite the same way they used to, I've realized my blog has a muffin top and instead of continuing to cram on those too tight pants, I'm ready to work to find the pants that fit the body I have instead of the one I had.

Right here, right now, I'm committing to myself AND to you, the reader:

• I will write at least one post a week.
• I will be brave and I will write, what makes my heart sing, or cry, or whatever else feels right in the moment.
• I will not hold onto a post, because it is not perfect or because it might need just a little more editing.
• I will continue to think about what I want my blog to be and I'm going to honor it enough, to let let it change.

Thanks for reading, for your support and for your patience.